unexpected benefits
Before getting pregnant I was afraid that being pregnant and having a child would take me away from the creative direction I wanted to head; instead, I've been pushed in that direction. For example, if I hadn't gotten pregnant Koalie wouldn't have asked for a photo of my belly and I wouldn't have started publishing photos on flickr, and would not have discovered the snowball effect of the flickr community on my art. The encouragement keeps me thinking about new photos and finding inspiration in others'. I also have an urgency to finish the documentary before I go on maternity leave and by working on it, I'm realizing how great the story is and how many possibilities we could have. Tomorrow, I'll attend a workshop, "The art of funding your film" to learn how to solicit a sizable sum so that we can make the film that we're envisioning. I have a couple photos shoots planned and am talking with a friend about illustrating her children's book. Today, I heard that there may be interest from a publisher on a different book project (where I'd be co-author, not illustrator, although maybe I could shoot the cover or something ;) ).
Who would have thunk that heading in the direction that felt least likely to open up these avenues is exactly the road to take? That instead of limiting opportunities, there is a world of new ones waiting for me? I was excited about the expected growth that John and I would experience (although, I had no idea how much more I could love him...and this is just the beginning...and this comes 15 years into loving each other) and I knew many unexpected things would happen, but for some reason I never thought it would awaken and connect to my creative side. Funny that, since it's the most amazing act of creation I've been involved in. :) And, we haven't even met the newcomer face-to-face.
I hope all of the seeds growing now continue to take root and that this metamorphosis will be larger and more rewarding than I could have expected. Everyone's been saying, "having a child will change your life forever" and I knew that, but it's so hard to predict how and how much. I still don't know how different things will be when we actually meet him or her. But, for all of the beautiful changes that we've experienced so far, thanks Gil!
Who would have thunk that heading in the direction that felt least likely to open up these avenues is exactly the road to take? That instead of limiting opportunities, there is a world of new ones waiting for me? I was excited about the expected growth that John and I would experience (although, I had no idea how much more I could love him...and this is just the beginning...and this comes 15 years into loving each other) and I knew many unexpected things would happen, but for some reason I never thought it would awaken and connect to my creative side. Funny that, since it's the most amazing act of creation I've been involved in. :) And, we haven't even met the newcomer face-to-face.
I hope all of the seeds growing now continue to take root and that this metamorphosis will be larger and more rewarding than I could have expected. Everyone's been saying, "having a child will change your life forever" and I knew that, but it's so hard to predict how and how much. I still don't know how different things will be when we actually meet him or her. But, for all of the beautiful changes that we've experienced so far, thanks Gil!
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